do you ever wonder if you're doing the right thing? making the right choices?
do you ever feel that reluctance to make a decision in order to avoid the responsibility?
right now i'm looking back over about eight years of bad choices and wishing i could go back. but not back to the me of then, back as i am now and make the decisions i'd be happy with now. not then.
ah see. that's the problem. the me of then was content with the decisions made. the me of now is not. that's why hindsight is dangerous.
it can make you live looking back at how things were with the mind you have now. but you aren't the same person you were then and had no idea what was in your future.
that's why you've just got to make the decisions. and stick with them.
i didn't get to watch films when i was younger. we weren't allowed. unless they were on my brothers watch list.
I made the mistake of straying from said list and let me tell you that's a mistake you make once.
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sometimes you just do things.
yelled at me age five. i had to learn early that sometimes, you just do things. whether it be load the dishwasher. whether it be wait patiently for half an hour to leave the house. things aren't always convenient. sometimes you can't have your toys.
sometimes, you put yourself on the naughty step because you know it's the right thing to do.
sometimes. you just make compromise. because that's how it is. you don't get to argue with it. you just get on with it even if you don't want to.
no ones going to fight your corner. no ones going to tell you otherwise. they'll just shrug and say 'lifes not fair'. sometimes. things happen.
sometimes you just have to roll with it.
sometimes. you just do things.
honestly i wish more people realised this. they're so self entitled and self centred they forget that sometimes you have to just crack on, because it's just the way it is. life isn't always in your favour.
