Tuesday

| 2020 | 03 | 31 | march empties |

soooo.
I might've spent my budget this month.
| Avene | Soothing Thermal Spring Water Spray | 50ml | £4.50 | Boots |
| Nivea | Anti-Perspirant Spray | 35ml | £1.50 | Superdrug |
| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Matte | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Glow | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Formula Concentrated Cream | 60g | £2.09 | Superdrug |
| Leganza | Colouring Conditioner | 31 Bitter Chocolate | £4.75 | Amazon |
| Radox | Muscle Soak Bath Salts | £1 | Tesco | 
| Bourjois | Rouge Edition Velvet | Brun Croyable | £8.49 | Look Fantastic |
| Original Source | Water Infusion Apple & Melon | £2.00 | Boots |
| Original Source | Water Infusion Pineapple & Lemon | £2.00 | Boots |
| Boots | Berries & Cream Shower Gel | £0.75 | Boots |
| Alberto Balsam | Ultra Strong Styling Gel | £1.00 | Sainsbury's |
| Boots | Styling Creme | £1.99 |
| Balibrush | Bamboo Toothbrushes | £4.99 | Amazon |
| Garnier | Hair Mask | Coconut | £4 | Amazon |
| Garnier | Hair Mask | Papaya | £4 | Amazon |
| Arm & Hammer  | Advanced White Extreme | £1.28 | Amazon |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Conditioner | 250ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Cosmetic Butter | Shea Butter refined | £3.95 | Amazon |
| Palmers | Body Lotion | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Listerine | Total Care Sensitive Mouthwash | 500ml | £2.23 | Superdrug |

£78.48

I just also want to make a note that this month I have bought a new sweatshirt and jeans.
but otherwise. i'm winning this fight.

the reason being - i had run out of bronzer because i decluttered the cream one i'd really started hating using.



| Amazon | Mama Bear Baby Wipes | 150 | £0.70 | Amazon |
| Amazon | Mama Bear Baby Wipes | 150 | £0.70 | Amazon |
| As I am | Coconut CoWash | £11 | Amazon |
| Leganza | Colouring Conditioner | 32 Chesnut | £4.75 | Amazon |
| Lush | Outback Mate | 120g | £5.20 | Lush |
| Roger & Gallet | Huile Sublime | 100ml | £25.50 | Roger & Gallet |
| Nivea | Anti-Perspirant Spray | 35ml | £1.50 | Superdrug |
| Radox | Muscle Soak Bath Salts | £1 | Tesco | 
| Noughty | Wave Hello Curl Defining Shampoo | 250ml | £6.99 | Superdrug |
| Garnier | Ultimate Blends Hair Food | Banana | £6.99 | Superdrug |

| Little Soap Co | Organic Lavender Bar Soap | 110g | £3.99 | Ocado |

body&misc. £68.32



| Smashbox | Camera Ready BB Water | £27 | Smashbox |
| DHC | Deep Cleansing Oil | 30ml | £5 | DHC |
| The Ordrinary | 100% Plant Derived squalanc | 30ml | £5.50 | The Ordinary |
| The Ordinary | Niacinamide 10% + Zinc 1% | 30ml | £5 | Cult Beauty |
| Clinique | Dramatically different moisturising lotion | purple active cartridge | £26 | John Lewis |
| Weleda | Skin Food | 75ml | £12.95 | Look Fantastic |
| Dr Jart+ | Dermask Vital Hydra Sleeping Mask | 75ml | £14 | Look Fantastic |
| Dr Botanicals | Wild Water Mint Micellar Cleanser | 100ml | £36.99 | Look Fantastic |
| Simple | Mini Pouch Hydrating Moisturiser | 50ml | £1.99 | Superdrug |
| Simple | Mini Pouch Hydrating Cleanser | 50ml | £1.99 | Superdrug |
| MAC | Prep + Prime | 30ml | £12.50 | ASOS |
| Treat | Coconut Cream | £7.50 | Amazon |
| Aurelia | Cell Revitalising Night Moisturiser | £13.50 |

face&makeup. £169.92


| DKNY | Be Delicious | 50ml | £55 | Boots |
| Clean Reserve | Rain | 100ml | £82 | Space NK |
| The Essence Vault | Inspired by Daisy | 100ml | £24.95 | The Essence Vault |
| Glossier | Glossier You | 50ml | £45 | Glossier |
| Diptyque | Eau De Sens | 30ml | £50 | Harrods |
| The Body Shop | Nigritella | 50ml | £20 | The Body Shop |
| The Body Shop | Widdringtonia | 50ml | £20 | The Body Shop |
| Yankee Candle | Mango Peach Salsa | Large | £23.99 | Amazon |

perfume. £320.94

Purchased - £78.48
Declutter - £744.21
Empties - £559.18

total. £1381.87

so.

okay.

how to unpack this monumental figure.
to be honest. i can't.

but. i can say that i feel better for it. i have streamlined my collection. i feel more in control of the things i own, and despite the slight blip this month due to the pandemic (oh come on it's a free excuse), i'm purchasing so much less.

i wish i had the previous purchase figures for 2019. i'm glad i don't because i'd be so mad, but at the same time i wish i could compare.




Monday

| 2020 | 03 | 30 | weekly wind down 12 |

one week done.

we have nowhere to be.

theme of the day is how slow everything is.

how i can't end a phone-call with 'i have to be such and such'

we literally have nothing else to go and do except the present.



it's going to be a murder in a supermarket (no witnesses because only three people were in there).

our little band of friends group together (maintaining 2 metres of distance) and solve the case all whilst washing our hands. 

sams spotlight moment will be wild.


guys.

i'm rewatching community.

again.

i know i've mentioned this but it's like hanging out with old friends.

just finished the episode where troy and abed sing to a rat with the dancing montage and awwww.












| 2020 | 03 | 30 | beauty purchases march |



march - £78.48
| Avene | Soothing Thermal Spring Water Spray | 50ml | £4.50 | Boots |
| Nivea | Anti-Perspirant Spray | 35ml | £1.50 | Superdrug |
| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Matte | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Glow | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Formula Concentrated Cream | 60g | £2.09 | Superdrug |
| Leganza | Colouring Conditioner | 31 Bitter Chocolate | £4.75 | Amazon |
| Radox | Muscle Soak Bath Salts | £1 | Tesco | 
| Bourjois | Rouge Edition Velvet | Brun Croyable | £8.49 | Look Fantastic |
| Original Source | Water Infusion Apple & Melon | £2.00 | Boots |
| Original Source | Water Infusion Pineapple & Lemon | £2.00 | Boots |
| Boots | Berries & Cream Shower Gel | £0.75 | Boots |
| Alberto Balsam | Ultra Strong Styling Gel | £1.00 | Sainsbury's |
| Boots | Styling Creme | £1.99 |
| Balibrush | Bamboo Toothbrushes | £4.99 | Amazon |
| Garnier | Hair Mask | Coconut | £4 | Amazon |
| Garnier | Hair Mask | Papaya | £4 | Amazon |
| Arm & Hammer  | Advanced White Extreme | £1.28 | Amazon |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Conditioner | 250ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Cosmetic Butter | Shea Butter refined | £3.95 | Amazon |
| Palmers | Body Lotion | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Listerine | Total Care Sensitive Mouthwash | 500ml | £2.23 | Superdrug |

total: £78.48





soooo.

early on in the month I watched a fairly interested Hannah Louise Poston video in which she more or less expressed having a kind of moderation breakdown in her personal life. she effectively beat herself up on camera and it was quite a painful watch in terms of the emotional impact of shopping.
She alluded to the idea that there are either abstainers or moderators (of which i fall into the former category due to a lack of self control). i feel like having a month of big spending then one of absolutely none 100% reinforces this.

it's very much my personality type.

| Avene | Soothing Thermal Spring Water Spray | 50ml | £4.50 | Boots |
this was a purchase for the trip to amsterdam. admittedly i could have managed without but i went hard with the boots points and this is where we've ended up. 

| Nivea | Anti-Perspirant Spray | 35ml | £1.50 | Superdrug |
another amsterdam purchase. i was fearful i'd be a stinky little madam from all the walking around in coats and popping into shops etc. so panic purchased. 
bigggggg regrets as i've sworn of anti-antiperspirants. 

| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Matte | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
so i might've ordered and returned a Kjaer Weis bronzer before realising nothing to put on my face should be worth £44. you just wash it off at the end of the day.

| Nyx | Sweet Cheeks Creamy Powder Blush Glow | So Taupe | £6 | Boots | 
i wasn't sure which of the blushes i would want - matte v glow so I might've gone for both in a panic. 

| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Formula Concentrated Cream | 60g | £2.09 | Superdrug |
my previous hand cream was the O'Keeffe's working hands (which by the way has incredibly glowing reviews which confuse me because it's not all that)  but like i wanted something which would make my hands feel nicer than sandpaper. 

| Leganza | Colouring Conditioner | 31 Bitter Chocolate | £4.75 | Amazon |
i want to bring down the redness in my hair so that regrowth to my usual mousy brown isn't too painful.
my hair at the moment is the best it has ever been.

| Radox | Muscle Soak Bath Salts | £1 | Tesco | 
i bought this because i fancied a bath and wanted to at least feel like it was productive.
30p per pamper sesh isn't awful but it's also unnecessary. 

| Bourjois | Rouge Edition Velvet | Brun Croyable | £8.49 | Look Fantastic |
massive regrets on this already. amazon makes it wayyy to easy to buy things.

| Aurelia Washbag | £13.50 | Aurelia |
i needed another washbag yo.

| Original Source | Water Infusion Apple & Melon | £2.00 | Boots |
ahem. washing

| Original Source | Water Infusion Pineapple & Lemon | £2.00 | Boots |
again. for the washing.

| Boots | Berries & Cream Shower Gel | £0.75 | Boots |
yeah i don't know why i bought three. but then again i'm the one with a shopping problem so.......

| Alberto Balsam | Ultra Strong Styling Gel | £1.00 | Sainsbury's |
i love the smell of this and i'm not quite sure how well it's working but my curls look wicked.




| Balibrush | Bamboo Toothbrushes | £4.99 | Amazon |
i'm not sure if i needed these. but for some reason i bought lots anyway.

i'm going to group the below hair purchases under 'corona virus made me do it'. and just hope that we can write this off as an unfortunate blip in our collective history and allow certain poor choices.
it does continue to reinforce how my coping strategy is to shop.

| Garnier | Hair Mask | Coconut | £4 | Amazon |
| Garnier | Hair Mask | Papaya | £4 | Amazon |
| Arm & Hammer  | Advanced White Extreme | £1.28 | Amazon |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Shampoo | 400ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Palmers | Cocoa Butter Conditioner | 250ml | £3.99 | Superdrug |
| Cosmetic Butter | Shea Butter refined | £3.95 | Amazon |

| Palmers | Body Lotion | £3.99 | Superdrug |
i'm panic buying. but not something edible.

| Listerine | Total Care Sensitive Mouthwash | 500ml | £2.23 | Superdrug |
mouthwash?
mouthwash.

Sunday

| 2020 | 03 | 29 | i don't |

i'm rewatching community (again.). as in i'm rewatching after rewatching after watching it again.

probably like, 7 times?

i think we all have one of those shows which basically suck.


i wonder how we'll look back on these months.
in a year.
in two.

whether we'll muse over them aged 50, quietly reminiscing with those around us 'do you remember that time we...'

who knows.

but what i do know is that i want off this goddamn rollercoaster pronto.

---

who knows what types of societal shifts we are going to experience as a result of all this, and what the long lasting implications will be? today on our walk we actively avoided other people, choosing to sidestep around them whilst at the same time yelling 'hi!'. talk about mixed messaging.

as someone who's degree was basically the study of all this, i can't seem to let it go.
pivotal moments in history which changed ontological and epistemological ways of existing.

---

and yet.

i spent the entirety of today in my pyjamas.


i've hit the bottom of my personal curve.
tomorrow marks the beginning of a productive week.

i'm going to keep learning french (so i suppose you want to tell me that duolingo doesn't count).




Friday

| 2020 | 03 | 27 | i just want peanut butter |

it's been a weird week. i'm genuinely really struggling, but doing my best to carry on as normal.
because we're all stuck with this one together so.

keep the tears to yourself missy.

today however, we made sorbet - to be fair it's still in the 'making yet to be sampled stage' so i can't speak for it's edibility but we shall see.


i'm trying to make a note of the things we do. 

tuesday.
first day in 'new lockdown-ish' mode. it was tough - i'll be honest. i was kind of reeling from the loss of L&F as it's now known and struggling to settle into the new routine. 
that morning i'd gone for my usual run and was met by every single person seemingly trying to be my long distance friend. 


wednesday - boy's birthday. 
it's a really tough set of rules to negotiate but i walked round to his and obeyed social distancing from his family (admittedly these aren't the rules rules) before staying on a blow up bed in the room of requirement. 
we'd had curry for dinner and whilst i wish i was more adventurous than a vegetarian korma - i know my box. 


thursday. 
we packed up and headed to my dads. believe it or not an oven is more of a selling point than you'd think. the weather is frustratingly perfect, and in a way people are enjoying it more than before. 
it feels like the world is slowing down. it's not an ideal circumstance but a pretty refreshing outcome. 
we can't do much more than wait for this to pass over - so we're waiting in the only way we know how. 

impatiently. 


friday.
i'd almost forgotten.
 i like having angus here. the company is nicer than i'd appreciated but it also feels quite low pressured.
we're working our way through one of the single largest vegetable orders in existence and have come full circle to the sorbet.
today was a rest day after yesterdays brutal crossfit workout.

it's going to be a long few months.

---

throwback
this post was one of my first obstacle races. not the first, but one of.

let's just say, it was back when i wasn't very familiar with my fitness and struggling a lot with self confidence.

Tuesday

| 2020 | 03 | 23 | weekly wind down 11 |

this weekly wind down - well, it's going to be one i don't forget.

i'll be honest, today is actually tuesday as i write this because i wasn't in the mood yesterday. and let me tell you for why.

we have been officially asked to stay indoors unless engaging in a specific set of activities, of which the list is short.

but that doesn't stop the rebellious parts of you wanting to push the boundaries.



Friday

| 2020 | 03 | 20 | yeahhhhhh |

last night i was a dribbling, snotty, yummy mess of tears.

lets picture me ugly crying whilst running shall we?


i couldn't quite work out why i was so upset. 
but clearly i was.

so.

it's cause we don't have a choice in all this you know?
you can be the best person and still end up locked in a really rubbish situation.

i'm sad i won't see my friends.
i'm sad the running club i've just joined and starting truly getting into isn't there.
i'm sad my new crossfit obsession has to be parked.
i'm sad because those things feel a bit fickle to be sad over but i'm still sad nonetheless.
i'm sad we're all sad and stressed and being a lil bit silly.

so i went home and did burpees til i felt sick (the two aren't related it was my workout for the day) and then felt a bit better cause i ended sitting on the floor eating a big bag of crisps in  my fluffy socks.

---

anyway.

instead of moping i'm going to try to be as productive as possible

i say that now but in two weeks i'll be wandering the world in my pjs barely awake.

Wednesday

| 2020 | 03 | 18 | lets all have some positivi-tea |

guys i think i'm gonna get rid of my rihanna perfumes.

wow.

i said it.

but i didn't mean it. i just sprayed the stuff and remembered just how edible it tastes.

---

until we start seeing cases in person, this whole situation feels just too surreal.

but for now there seems to be an unwritten rule in the office - no coronavirus.

we've made it 39 minutes so far without the word being uttered, without the news being discussed and without anyone coughing.

progress is solid.

---

i've started listening to songs on youtube at 1.5x speed. it makes things a bit more binky bonky.

---

i had a bit of a rocky morning myself.
the boy got back from france yesterday (thankfully) and i probably overreacted but i was a bit dejected there had been minimal acknowledgement as to how the situation would affect us.
i think we cope differently.
i sorta throw all my emotions every where and have to attempt to control their direction.
he clearly does the opposite and just swallows it all.

hey ho.

hopefully i haven't fucked it up.

---










Monday

| 2020 | 03 | 16 | weekly wind down 10 |


ahhh what a weekend. 

myself and mike traveled up to see the third member of our gang - and what a fun trip was had all round. 

initially we weren't completely sure i'd make it. 
[insert coronavirus].

but the journey up itself was fairly unexciting and by around 12.30 we were knee deep in the north.

cue the rain. 

our trip to find mike some wildlife ('i was promised deer. this is not acceptable') took us via a donkey and some horses. 

then the icecream. 

before boardgames which actually was surprisingly fun. 

the curry that night was honestly one of the best i've eaten - then again i'm probably not someone you'd go to for a recommendation (korma?). 


we used to be the best friends at school, and it's definitely not changed despite time. we're still weird, very dorky and bicker always. 


i think this is one of my favourite photos i've taken to date. 

i remember this run, it was cold (as the mist would suggest) and i'd just had my hair cut. 



Friday

| 2020 | 03 | 13 | declutter 7 |

I watched a brutal declutter video recently.
i mean it. brutal.
anything she wasn't sure of - rather than keeping it for later she just got rid.

and i wanted to have that curated feel to my life. to my collection.
if it doesn't serve. it doesn't stay.

it's taken a while to accept that some of these items have a large financial value - but that is where the value ends and the burden begins.
it is because they have a big value i feel even worse for keeping them. i don't feel good. i don't want things anymore.

i've finally recognised how useless i am at life.

i lose everything. i can't keep track of my keys - so why on earth have i complicated things with a collection of over 30 perfumes?!


| Glossier | Futuredew | 30ml | £23 | Glossier |
| Glossier | Lip Gloss | Red Rouge | £11 | Glossier |
| Glossier | Lip Gloss | Clear | £11 | Glossier |
| Glossier | Generation G | Leo | £14 | Glossier |
| Yves Saint Laurent | Black Opium | 50ml | £75 | Debenhams |
| Bobbi Brown | Intensive Skin Serum Concealer | Porcelain | £30 | John Lewis |
| Urban Decay | Naked Heat | £43 | Urban Decay |
| The Body Shop | Swietenia | 50ml | £20 | The Body Shop |



i think this is almost the end of all my glossier products. the brief love affair that, as they always do, drained my bank account and my soul with very little in return.

bobbi brown - repeat after me OXIDISES.

disappointment central.

£227

Tuesday

| 2020 | 03 | 10 | declutter 6 |

here is another. i feel like i should add that these are given to friends. 


| MAC | Art Library Palette | Flame-Boyant | £39 | MAC |
| Glossier | Balm.com | Rose | 15ml | £10 | Glossier |
| Rihanna | Love Always | 100ml | £40 | Superdrug |
| Bourjois | Clubbing Mascara | Ultra Black | £7.99 | Look Fantastic |
| Glossier | Haloscope | Quartz | £18 | Glossier |

114.99

Monday

| 2020 | 03 | 09 | weekly wind down 9 |









| 2020 | 03 | 09 | declutter 5 |

the fifth declutter of the year. how insane.
i decided i don't want to wear eye liner anymore, so that's £25 worth of stuff just gone and i feel so much better for it.
i'm still struggling with the very negative feelings of guilt associated with perceived waste, but the damage is done, my money is gone and i have these little plastic tubs to show for it.
there is absolutely no point holding on to something i'm not getting value from using.


| Eyeko | Fat Liquid Eyeliner | £16 | Look Fantastic |
| Nyx | Epic Ink Liner | Black | £9 | Superdrug |
| Eyelure | Brow Pomade | Mid Brown | £8.95 | Superdrug |
| Glossier | Generation G | Cake | £14 | Glossier |
| Chanel | Chance Eau Tendre | 50ml | £67 | John Lewis |
| Aurelia | Cell Revitalise Night Moisturiser | £13 | Aurelia |
| Oilatum | Dry Skin Emollient Cream | 350ml | £7.65 | Amazon |
| Glossier | Balm.com | Cherry | 15ml | £10 | Glossier |
| HASK | Argan Oil | 18ml | £2.49 | Superdrug |

148.09

Wednesday

| 2020 | 03 | 04 | shea butter |

according to my march horoscope - i'm on it this month. like the lion i am.

apparently i'm going to take on more responsibility and later on in the month really assess my emotions when it comes to spending and saving.
then. if i've wanted to go travelling i should consider it on the 19th.

i'm going to find myself.

---

this is mainly bullshit. but still i read them as a comforting kind of story. it's nice to know what the universe might've had planned for me.

---

i am so glad i gave up heat styling on my hair.

not only am i saving time - but i think i'm actually improving the health of it too.
i also no longer own a hair dryer or hair straighteners - which has also been a bonus because they're really annoying to store.

first world problems eh?

---

the thing is, people are temporary.
no no, life is temporary.

i realise that now. it's only taken 27 years to work out that i should be putting people first. showing them i care.

life is temporary.
this resonates with me on such a high level. like lamely high.

people come into and out of the world in the blink of an eye and the thought of this unknown is slightly scary. relationships are tough. people will hurt you and you will hurt others. choose to be better. replace negativity with positive behaviour and just be the best you can. be known as the person who cared.

now when i'm with someone, I try to not allow myself to be distracted. because (this is super morbid) but there is a chance you may never see them again.
in a less morbid way - think of it as moments pass and you can't ever get them back. i don't want to look back on a situation and wish i had done it differently. i don't want to regret things. i don't want to wish i had listened. i don't want to forget details of their face or outfit because i was on my phone or staring out the window.

i'm trying to live in moments rather than via online content or other stimuli.

Tuesday

| 2020 | 03 | 02 | weekly wind down 8 |

i used to wake up ridiculously early. half because i had insomnia and half because i liked the fresh air.

i'd walk into the garden barefoot, even when it was frosty and sit watching the fish. 

- i don't think my body could do that anymore. i like my warm bed too much and need to sleep.

---

i'm not missing my rigorous training routine. i thought i would. but i'm not.

very good.

'you ruin things by thinking vulnerability is a weakness'

thought of the week.

i am so useless at sharing things. how i feel. what i think. what i really mean.
i don't like being a bother so would rather keep it to myself and be the uncomfortable one.
i'm trying to get better at not doing that.


sometimes its hard sharing things.
sometimes you don't want to.
but you should because the people around you care.



| 2020 | 03 | 03 | declutter 4 |

this is another fairly brutal declutter which will bring up my total.

but it had to be done. i'm slowly realising i have what i consider a 'special' product, and then a less 'special' version for every day. but i should treat myself and wear the special one always and not have something that isn't quite right.

specifically below the perfumes were something i'd been forcing myself to get through rather than enjoying the process.

so i've just cut that step out and will be giving them to someone else who may get more joy.

who knows .

the concealer was the wrong colour. the bronzers were cream - which is something i had lusted after for so long but come to the realisation i don't enjoy that type of product.

the lip injection - sure it looks nice but it's not an every day product and takes up space. so i'll be saying bye.
then theres the lipsticks.
the browns. another lust. colours i'd been pining for for so long. but it's taken owning them and not using them to realise they were never the right shade.

ah well. lesson learnt.


| Al Rehab | Choco Musk Perfume Spray | 50ml | £7.80 | Amazon |
| Calvin Klein | CK One | 200ml | £59 | Superdrug |
| The Essence Vault | Inspired by Black Opium | 100ml | £24.95 | The Essence Vault |
| The Essence Vault | Inspired by Tobacco and Vanilla | 100ml | £24.95 | The Essence Vault |
| The Essence Vault | Inspired by Bon Bon | 100ml | £24.95 | The Essence Vault | [not pictured]
| Noughty | Intensive Care Leave-in Conditioner | 150ml | £6.99 | Superdrug |
| Charlotte Tilbury | Matte Revolution | Birkin Brown | £25 | Charlotte Tilbury |
| Illamasqua | Get Sculpt | Silhouette | Travel Size | £10 | Look Fantastic |
| Illamasqua | Gel Sculpt | Silhouette | Travel Size | £10 | Look Fantastic |
| Bourjois | Satin Edition 24H | Oh De Roses | £6.99 | Boots |
| Glossier | Stretch Concealer | 1 | £15 | Glossier |
| Bobbi Brown | Crushed Lip Colour | Cranberry | £24.50 | John Lewis |
| Too Faced | Lip Injection Extreme | Travel Size | £12 | Boots |
| Too Faced | Lip Injection Extreme | £22 | Boots |

£274.13






Monday

| 2020 | 03 | 02 | this is amsterdam |

what a weekend.

spent the weekend with the boy in amsterdam. 
i was a bit nervous actually - silly really. first trip away always has the potential to highlight any areas of friction we may have been able to gloss over. new place. tired people. spending every moment together. lots of decision making. and so on. 

i needn't have worried, it was awesome. 

friday
a fairly early start for our flight from heathrow. thankfully angus's mum drove us there and as airport experiences go - this was one of my less stressful ones. 

upon arrival it was an easy train journey to the centre of amsterdam and a good 25 minute walk to our airbnb. (if you're heading that direction definitely consider this place - it was ideal!).
we then popped over to the local Dirk to grab the essentials for lunch. i spent a lot of that expedition in the chocolate aisle. 

the only downside to our amsterdam accommodation? the stairs. this photograph doesn't quite encapsulate how ladder-like they were. 

i could have died. 

we had lunch at home, before heading out to do some proper exploring. it was at this point that whichever storm was passing over, passed over, and left us two very damp individuals. 


we popped into a few cheese shops (and a cheese museum) before wandering further into the centre in search of some more tourist spots. we are tourists. it's in our blood.


to find some respite from the rain we decided to experience the dungeon. 
as these types of things go - i'm gonna be honest and rate this one quite highly. solid 8/10. 
the actors were on point and the whole experience was genuinely a little on the scary side. 


that evening we took the smarter choice to hide from the adverse weather, making a pretty decent (and healthy) pasta dish before turning to netflix for some prison break. what else would we do?

saturday.
we started the day slowly. waking up around 8 and having a cooked breakfast by angus.
on point.
first stop was Vondelpark - a big open space with a lot of people and bikes.
the bikes.
i'm still borderline traumatised by them. every road crossing involved me grabbing onto angus and basically shutting my eyes - hopeful i wouldn't collide with a two wheeled mode of transport.



my version vs the version he wanted taken.

one hot chocolate later we were on our way to meet one of his good friends, who i'd been warned was a bit of a terror.

he took us on a quick walk around the main sights before we ended up at the heineken experience. despite beer not being my favourite it was still pretty interesting and very well done. the boys got my two free beers (which were the first of many).

here's a picture outside a museum we didn't actually go into.



wester cooked us all dinner (after two pub stops, visiting a market for waffles and pickled fish) before opening many bottles of wine.

then.

we ended in a very dutch bar being handed alcohol every time our glasses ran dry. i am amazed we made it home that night.




sunday.
using the very reliable scale, angus felt a poor 8/10 for worseness.
that makes sense i swear, so after feeding him painkillers we stayed in bed a little longer.

breakfast was in a very fancy cafe spot (recommended by our host.


i for sure needed the coffee.

we decided to mooch for our final day and then jump on a canal tour as our final tourist destination.

angus was feeling a little snoozy so i'm fairly certain he was enjoying sitting down.


once we'd absorbed a lot of factual information, the final hunt for waffles began before our flight home.



it was both a busy and relaxed kind of trip, with around 70,000 steps taken (we were able to walk everywhere, so we did), and a lot of chocolate consumed.
the flight home was uneventful, and we were back by around 8pm.
i don't think i'd have managed to get as much done had angus not been a wizard when it comes to map reading and planning. boy did good.

happy days.