this year, i have vowed to be ordinary.
no extreme sports, no unnecessary targets, nothing to obsess over and no goals to surpass.
i am going to be bang on average.
let me be clear - i was never not average. but i applied the level of pressure on my self that it was some kind of life and death situation requiring a ridiculous level of perfectionism and anxiety.
it wasn't good for my brainspace.
i was too critical.
too harsh.
i wasn't bestowing upon myself the kindness i expect from others or to themselves.
silly really.
it was actually back when myself and angus were penpals when he pointed out that i could never si still.
i think he didn't realise how much i would ponder than point, but it's only recently that i truly realise how bad a habit it is.
