| 2019 | 05 | 02 | today. today. today |

i wonder if it is our human nature which encourages us to take things for granted. to assume that no matter what - things will always remain.

like the planet. or the fact the sun comes up every morning (which by thew way I try to remain thankful for).

social media has made this more acceptable. no longer, when someone says goodbye - are they truly gone for good. it would take one digital message to bring them back.

> side note. it's 06:51 and i'm watching a programme about flamingo chicks. go figure.


i'm a bit sad today. subdued. the hype, the lead up, the fear, everything is over. the dw is over. and now that i've overcome it i'm not scared.

actually. beforehand someone said 'you're one of those annoying people who will just take this in your stride'. and i guess, i totally did.


i'm really struggling to film a post race chit chat.




people don't deserve a second chance.

you don't deserve it. it's not built into our system. sure, mistakes aren't ideal and you didn't mean for the consequence after, but that's part of learning to anticipate what could happen.


not everyone gets as excited as i do.


also. sometimes pennies drop. sometimes they rain down from the sky. and sometimes they topple