Tuesday

| 2019 | 04 | 02 | bumped. [elderly] to back then |

i used to live by and/or. in the middle.
non committal.
lack of care
indecision

wanting everything
because i didn't want anything
the other was removed. and
now i have nothing.

pick a door.
don't keep them all open.
you said as i kept looking away. i didn't.
but i learned and realise what i did wrong.

i fear one day
you'll wake up and miss me
and i fear one day
it will be far too late

i am not a box labelled
as extra
put in a corner and when
needed dusted off and used

i am not second best
or an option
i'm a choice
and clearly not yours.