Monday

| 2019 | 03 | 04 | the sun shines brightest after rain |

If not now, then when?
if not me, then who?

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when you have nothing left, you create something out of that nothing. and with that something - you find greatness.

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you have to face yourself tomorrow. are you gonna be okay with what you see in the mirror?

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the time to act is now.

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i choose to rise, not to fall
i choose to live, not to die
i choose.

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when you get to the point you can't take it anymore? you cannot quit. just because it hurts.

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champions keep going when they have nothing left. that's what separates them. when they're ready to give up. that's when they get going.

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every human has what it takes to get past what's in their way - if they decide to.

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the obstacles should be scared of you. when you see something in your way you tear. it. down.

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success doesn't know about cold, or hungry, or tired. you can't just say you want it. you've got to turn up and perform.

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inch by inch, play by play, til we're finished
we're in hell right now.
and we can stay here and get the shit kicked out of us.
or we can fight our way back
into the light
we can climb outta hell

one inch at a time.

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when i first started to read about ultra marathons, ultra events and generally participating in something requiring you to endure the line between tolerance and pain.

but everyone talks about the times they hit the wall.

no matter the distance, no matter the athlete. everyone tells of that time that truly broke them.

it's not just about how bad it was, it's about how you pick yourself back up again.

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I truly anticipate during the DW there will be moments I don't want to keep going. It's going to feel long, uncomfortable and probably at times - boring. repetitive. slow. but when I'm faced with these situations, i have two mantras.

inch by inch.

because i know we're not going backwards. it doesn't matter how far, how long - if you keep clawing out those inches you're gonna get there.

if not now, then when.

this one fires me up from the failure of my first ultra marathon. the pain in my foot paled in comparison to the pain in my soul from having to stop. i'd placed so much on that race, so much of the previous six months had been resting on the success of that day. to see it blow up so spectacularly made me realise that unless I'm truly injured there is no pain that can't be overcome. there is no discomfort that won't fade with time except failure. that's so much worse than enduring discomfort. 20 hours. i live that every day. and then some.

what's your why?
it's not enough to want something. you need a motive. what moves you? what drives you? anyone can have talent. but you need that extra something to drive you forward.
if you're not careful your talent will take you places your character can't keep you.


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anyway this is waffle but basically. i'm scared of the dw, because i can't live with myself if i back down from the fight. i'm more frightened of failure than i am of that race.