Monday

| 2018 | 12 | 03 | bump into me and call me daisy |

I'm not sure you know why I'm like this but I am.

I'll be running seminars for these:
'don't touch that it's hot'
'we drive on the left'
'watch out for electricity, it's live 100% of the time'
'how to brush your hair and 30 other things you should be doing as an adult'

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speaking of adulting.

I'm categorically failing to comprehend why everyone wants to follow the same rulebook.

I threw mine out my car when reversing through a gap that was, in fact, not the width of my car but around one inch less.

utterly delightful.


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Anyways.

How do i begin to sum up my last month or so?

I don't really.

It happened. It wasn't very fun. I'm still not sure what's going to be done next but for now I'm allowed back doing all the things I love .

For example.

There is nothing I can think of that makes me happier than kayaking.

 I love it why? You ask. I know you do.

Because.

No matter how hard you try, no matter what you learn, there is always more.

 Because.

Well actually a fifteen year old said it better than I as we finished our 20 miles paddle together.

'wow. i love being broken. it's the best feeling'.

then she jumped out her boat and essentially napped in the back of a car.

that is what is so addictive though. the ability to push yourself beyond any reasonable level and keep going. nothing beats the k2 when it's flying, but equally the feeling after it's been down is something else too.

you're chasing shadows.