| 2018 | 04 | 14 | some people |

you have to participate

'i think we are well advised to stay on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on the mind's door at 4am of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends'
Joan Didion

You can't remake yourself completely. You can't completely disregard or discard older versions of yourself like incremental software upgrades, It doesn't work like that. Remember the clothes you once wore.

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I'm so excited for this weekend, but nervous by how busy i will be. I need to book a day off and just sleep I think. 

It's starting to affect my training. 

Though as was pointed out last night, that doesn't entirely matter any more.