that's what sophie did.

Sunday

| 2021 | 01 | week 4 |

Oh wow I'm already behind on my weekly wind-downs.

Though to be fair not a lot has actually happened.

Saturday

| 2021 | 01 | 02 | clothes + beauty spending | #nobuy

In the spirit of my 'sort of low buy, barely no buy' 2021 I've been reviewing 2020 as a benchmark.

Interestingly, I bought 68 items across the year (this includes socks, hats, gloves etc).

The total was £1220.38 - though at the time of writing I have just purchased a new coat that I may or may not end up keeping.

That leaves a total of around £100 a month on clothes.

I've decided that across 2021 I will allow £40 per month for new clothes and I have to have a two week waiting period prior to purchase. Planning yo. I'm hoping that I won't need to do this.

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My beauty spend has been a bit more.... well a bit more.

I don't feel proud of myself here.

£2200. That's £180ish.

I need to bring that right down so I'm putting a hardcore spending limit on that.

£30 for beauty.

£20 for hair.

I've divided these sections down as hair needs to include haircuts and other tools and I'm interested how they compare and contrast.

same rules apply with regard to wish lists.

Sigh. Here we go.

Thursday

| 2020 | 12 | 31 | december empties |

£100.43

| 2020 | 12 | 31 | yeah. that happened.

most years I write a summary post that is a celebration of the year that has past. but I've sort of abandoned that in the same way that my weekly wind-downs wound down into a nothingness.

I have no idea how to concisely summarise the last 12 months and the events therein. I don't know how to explain to those who are also experiencing the exact same series of events (perhaps in a slightly different way) that these series of events suck, without it sounding like I'm throwing a pity party.

2020 has officially sucked balls. in the formal sense.

I don't think I've truly processed the implications of this year and how our lives will continue to be affected well into 2021. I just don't understand. Obviously I understand this situation in a literal sense, but in any other sense things don't fully compute.

much of this year has been a learning curve. learning how to adapt. learning that new things are okay. it's also been a real test of patience. we're being given rules that are so far out of our control and just being instructed to 'get on with it all'.

we've walked. a lot. a lot of walking.

we've read books. not enough books but more than we probably would have.

I've dyed my hair red. then let it wash out before dyeing it again.

we've spent a lot of time alone.

I've online shopped hard. I've then had a shopping ban. Then I shopped again.

we've queued for shops.

we've done online quizzes.

we've complained.

we've sighed.

we've watched boris give increasingly negative accounts of the world.

I've rolled my eyes a lot. that seems to be my new coping mechanism.

we've spent too much time online. social media is hurting us.

we've napped.

we've also spent nights unable to sleep.

we've eaten out to help out.

then we've eaten in to hide from the rest of the population.

we've learn that the number 6 vastly reduces our social sphere.

we've celebrated more birthdays than we thought we would.

we've been to the beach.

i've kayaked a lot.

there was a sunflower.

the majority of summer was spent out side. that was quite nice actually.

angus's three week stay is yet to end. probably more like 40 now and counting.

he has his own desk. (but only for three weeks)

we went to harry potter world.

we attended dance classes.

then there was zoom.

a life online is not a life. but it's our life.

i've seen more of my dad this year. that's nice too.

the cats are so used to constant attention i don't think it's fair to stop that now. i'll have to tell my boss.

Monday

| 2020 | 11 | 30 | november empties |

| Nyx | Eyebrow Pomade | £6.50 | ASOS |

not mentioned.

| Lixir Skin | Good Skin Trio Mini - Vitamin C Paste | 30ml | £11 | ASOS \
| MAC | Prep + Prime | 3oml | £13 | ASOS |

£89.98

| 2020 | 11 | 23 | weekly winddown #?

so I have lost count.

november has been quite the month hasn't it?

we're locked down (or are we) and just generally struggling to entertain ourselves through some rougher weather.

angus has built his own computer now in the new home office. I think we're going to try and do a repaint of the room too.

paddling has been my lifeline through these odd times. This photo was obviously taken before this lockdown as there are three of us.

another photot of the princess on my yoga mat.

| 2020 | 11 | 16 | deja vu |

I'm injured again.

The legitimacy of my injury isn't helping the fact I don't want to be.

Thursday

| 2020 | 11 | 05 | sides |

air of expectancy. silence.

my walk this morning was misty, gloomy and quiet. peaceful would be the wrong word, still is more appropriate.

it's almost as if the world is waiting for something. watching.

we are all hanging on to a precipice, hoping.

Sunday

| 2020 | 11 | 01 | groovy |

November feels very bleak right now.

today was our last group session for a while (who knows, 4 weeks? 8 weeks?). we reveled in the small things. there's something almost fun about the convoy over to the jubilee, the run beforehand and the changing in the car park afterwards. We had the most incredible sunny weather and had such a warm welcome from the local wildlife.

our home squad then went out for a meal. the giggling squid. family favourite. we just enjoyed it whilst we could.

I want to cry at the prospect of the sheer loneliness the next 4 weeks offers.

but i've just got to join everyone else doing what they can.

Saturday

| 2020 | 10 | 31 | october empties |

| Nyx | Eyebrow Pomade | £6.50 | ASOS |

£119.27